ALONE?


There are times that, to be honest, I feel all alone. Yes, I have a great deal of friends that I love and they love me. I am saying this all wrong I think. There are times however, that I feel...Well, alone. More like lonely I guess. When the hustle and bussle of life has you going a million miles an hour...Sometimes you just want to come home and place your head on your lovers lap and be still. Know what I mean?
Anyway.
That's how I have been feeling lately. NO, I am not looking for sympathy. Just wanted to be honest with where I am in life right now...Tonight.

Well, I came across this goofy thing on another blog. Take a look at it and see how many there are of "you".
Until Next Time...

HowManyOfMe.com

There are: 209 people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name?

PERVERT...OR NORMAL GAY MALE?


Ok...So, at my apartment complex, we have covered parking (which is nice in the summer and great when its raining). Well the other night I was going to my car to clean it out and I looked up into the apartments. All of our bedrooms look-out to the parking spots. Well, I found my bedroom...I always check to make sure that you can't see in because I get a little carried away with myself sometimes...LOL! Anyway, the guy that lives above me was at his computer working I assumed. His blinds were pulled up abit and I could see him sitting there typing. I wasn't staring its just the movement caught my eye. MOVING ON...He is a very handsome guy that always smiles and says hello. His girlfriend is not nearly as nice.

IM rambling again!

Well the other night while he was at his desk and I was cleaning out my car...He stood up and pulled his shorts off and stood at the computer. Ass in total view. I couldn't see if he was "taking care of business" but I know that's what he was doing. Well needless to say it totally turned me on! He has a beautiful ass and it really got me going. So much so that I forgot that I was outside and a car pulled around the corner. BUSTED!!!
I have felt guilty ever since and at the same time cant stop thinking about his butt! Yes, it was that good!!!

Anyway...I just feel like a complete PEEPING TOM and I need to check myself in. Someone please tell me that you would have done the same thing. Stared for abit while the guy worked on himself. To answer the next question...No I couldn't see his Dick...DAMN!!!

Until Next Time...

THE PAST TWO WEEKS...



I was going to write about some things that have been going on for the last 2 weeks. Actually, I started a post about this one night in particular, but it is becoming way to long and even I don't want to read about it...But maybe I will post about it later because it is funny!

Here are the elements of the last couple of weeks in my life:
A new guy, from out of town (of course). A couple of GREAT dates. HIS ex-lover! A fight. MOTEL 6. Drug dealers stalking me (only the one night). Female Hookers looking for action (the same night). A NASTY-ASS hotel room (motel 6). Staying in this flea-bag for a couple of hours (I still itch...All in my head, of course)My "new friend" calling to tell me he got home after his ex-lover showed up at the airport causing an argument in which, my friend, called the guy a Faggot and then the "ex" threw the plate of food on his head (right before he was to board his plane). An argument involving a co-worker. My assistant quitting. Cancun. The Ritz Carlton. Getting fried by the sun. Turning back to white RIGHT away (I swear it looks like I spent all of Cancun in the room). Relaxation! (Can you say amen to the relaxation part!!!!)

Well, there you have it. A crazy couple of weeks! I may write about it for real sometime but for now I think I will just be happy to relax this weekend and keep it simple. There has been enough drama for awhile.
Until Next Time...

WHAT A VACATION!!!


I have to brag for just a bit...AAAHHHH The Ritz Carlton in Cancun was amazing! I loved the fact that we were picked up at the airport, driven to the hotel, greeted with champagne. Good Times. The staff could not have been more accommodating. Everything was thought out and well prepared by the staff that I wanted for nothing! I am here to tell you...If you have the opportunity...GO! We stayed on the "Club Level" which was extra special. The Hotel had "presentations" (buffets) roughly every 3 hours and it was amazing. Cocktails were continuously flowing and I swear I just felt like a King. Of course I already think that I am a King; it was just nice for someone else to treat me like one! J/K!!!!
I will share more details later.
Until Next Time...

H A P P Y
C O M I N G - O U T
D A Y!!!

AAHHH L I F E!!!


Well, its Wednesday evening and I have had one of those days.
Lets start off by saying that I had insomnia last night! Good Times. So, when the alarm went off at 6:30 this morning I was not a happy camper! To add to the beautiful day...I got my review. It was all really good except for one part. I got some marks against me because I didn't communicate with a manager that the whole company wants to get rid of. She is a woman that is hateful and condescending to all of her staff and to upper management. Why don't they fire her? Good question. I think part of it is that her numbers are well above goals (40-50%) and it is hard to get rid of someone like that. The fact that everyone cannot communicate with her and that she is a royal bitch shouldn't reflect on my review!

Enough about that!

More to the list that made this an amazing day...Dentist Visit! Yes, yours truly had to get a root canal today. Let me just tell you that a trip to the dentist is...Well lets just say I would rather swim in shark infested waters covered in fish guts! I had taken a valuim to be able to get there with out screaming like a girl. The "V" didn't kick in till about 15 minutes into the procedure. Thank goodness that it kicked in because I was really starting to have an anxiety attack!

But all is well. The tooth is feeling fine and I am in great spirits. I have a great deal to be thankful for. True, the "Dallas" friend sorta fell off the face of the earth. His lost right!?!? It didn't help that he blew me off after I sent some more photos of myself. But like a friend told me...Fuck Him! I thought that was a little harsh but what ya gonna do?

I hope everyone is doing well and the week is nearly over! Yippee!!!
Until Next Time...

V A C A T I O N!!!


I am sooooo ready for my vacation, you have NO IDEA!!! I just really need to get away and relax. Don't get me wrong. I love Houston and always have. I just need to be on a beach for a while. Relax! Recharge! Regroup! Know what I mean? It just seems that here lately I have been given a great deal of "curve balls" and I am tired of "striking out". Sorry for the baseball analogy...it was all I could come up with. Well, thank goodness that CANCUN is only 2 weeks away. Of course, they will probably be the LONGEST 2 weeks known to man...but thats ok. I cant wait to get there...be pampered and waited on 24/7...AAHHHH Good Times!

I hope everyone had a nice weekend and enjoyed their Mondays.
Until Next Time...

IT HAS FINALLY HAPPENED!


Yes, my dear bloggworld friends...It has finally happened. I guess it was around 2:30 today (give or take a few hours). I have decided to embrace my single-hood. Yes, I know that I shouldn't speak like this. Oh Well, life will go on.
I think, for me, that the men I come across tend to be a little self involved and are incapable of a deep meaningful conversation. And God forbid you actually show some real emotion...Hell that scares them off faster than My dates dress at our Senior Prom.
Seriously though, what is with the guys today. I should say only the ones I come into contact with, but apparently this is a common thread that runs in our community.

What happened to all the TRUE gentlemen out there. You know the ones that are considerate, compassionate, thoughtful, understanding, honest, dependable, respectful...I could go on for days. It isn't like I am looking for the Miracle Man...God knows I have my own hang-ups. I just want a man to treat me with a little respect. Show a little tenderness and compassion. I would love it if He had an ounce of decency as well. But apparently I am asking for too much.
So, I have decided to just be with myself. Do things for myself that I would normally do for someone that I am dating.

All is well, in the grand scheme of things and I hope that you all are happy for me. I plan on registering at Pottery Barn if anyone is interested in celebrating this new relationship I am in with myself.
Until Next Time...

AS THE WORLD TURNS...


Yes...Today is Friday and it couldn't have come fast enough. This has been the longest week known to man and I am happy to have a couple of days off of work to rest, relax, drink, and recover.
I've had to work 11 of the last 12 days and this boy is tired. Let me tell ya'...that aint good!!! When I get this tired the mind plays tricks on you. Another thing that's not good. It also makes me cranky...and when that happens...watch out because I become a real bitch. AND THATS THE WORST!!! So, tonight I am going to finish this post. Make me a cocktail and watch some good movies.

Happy Weekend everyone,
Until Next Time...

THE GAMES PEOPLE PLAY...


OK, can I say something that might piss-off a couple of you guys...
I think that I am done! DONE! I tell ya.
There is a certain type of GAY man that loves to play games. Well I am here to tell you that I am DONE WITH THAT!!!
I know all the psyco-bable. That in some way that I am opening myself up to that type of guy. Well, I AM NOT!!! Yes, that might sound like I am being defensive, I'm not. Its just that I am tired of being played. Does anyone know what I mean? It's just getting old. If you are of a certain age...quite being stupid! Know what you want! STOP telling me what I want to hear; tell me waht you are thinking and lets move on!

ENOUGH ABOUT THAT

Today I did have a really interesting moment happen at work. I was in the food court getting a soda and I saw a tall guy walking towards me. It looked like he was with his folks and I really didnt pay him much attention. Something inside told me to look one more time, so I did. Our eyes met and I had the strangest thing happen. It was like this guy saw the real me. It was almost like we were looking at each others souls. Does that make any sense? I felt like this guy was seeing ALL of me and I actually felt naked. It was strange but beautiful at the same time. Please someone tell me they have had this happen before. I am not talking about being cruised in a bar. Thats completely different. I get cruised all the time in this city...I am talking about a weird...strange...humbling...Soul Connection!

Well I guess you had to be there. It was strange. Lifted my spirits and left me feeling very vulnerable (in a good way).

Ok...Now that I have rambled on about absolutely nothing. I will leave you all now. Have a great day and I will blog later on.
Until Next Time...

WHERE DO I SIGN UP...


Ok, so I wasn't going to BLOG tonight but I thought I should just let yall in on my current mood state.
I think it would best be summed up with the question..."Where do I sign up for some anger management classes?"
IM not real sure why, but today I could and would have loved to have GONE OFF on somebody. Maybe its sleep deprivation...Lack of sex...OH HELL...It could just be my time of the month! But events in my life right now have left me angry with very little action I can take to make things better.

I have come to the conclusion that I must take control of the things that I can control and let the rest just fall away. My problem is that I cant let things go very easily. But I am going to give it my best shot!

So lets hope, for the time being, that the "classes" wont be needed and that things will get back on track.

Have a good day everyone!
Until Next Time...

WHAT THE F#@&!!!!


That is what came to my mind today when I went in to work after being gone all last week!!! I realize that people get busy and things are maintained like they should be....But come on! I just stood there for the longest time not knowing where to begin. I was feelin' overwhelmed. To make matters worse, my assistant was off last week also and the whole place was a complete mess!!! I could not put my mind around it.
SO...Like any good employee I just threw my hands in the air and said...WHAT THE F#@&!!!

I guess in the grand scheme of things...It all means JOB SECURITY!!!
But I gotta tell ya, I thought today was going to "break" me and I just refuse to let my job control more of my life than necessary.

I hope everyone's Monday was better than mine...
Until Next Time...

WHAT A WEEK...


Ok, so I was traveling last week with my job. Ususally it's a great deal of fun and I love to see all my friends that I have in the company. We "WORK HARD AND PLAY HARDER!" I dont think a day went by that drinks werent being poured and one of us had too many. That is saying alot if you new how conservative people thought our company was.
ANYWAY
I guess my friend Jason and I were a little to intimidating to the others because mid-week we both started getting stares. At first, I could care less. I generally dont care what people think of me, but for some reason by day 3 I was ready to Kick some Ass! I blame this aggression on the previous post's subject and my new found love of the UFC...
(Back to the story)
Well it was day 3 and I guess someone had complained that we (Jason & I) were being a little to cliquish and decided to goto our boss about it. Well, again, I dont care about others opinions but it just so happens that TODAY, I CARED!!! And the lovely boss I have (sorry AJ) decided that it would be smart for the two of us to be separated at dinner so that the others wouldnt feel left out. Keep in mind that we are all adults here. NO children, so to speak. And Jason is a guy that I have known for close to 5 years and we have always gotten along well. The whole thing just pissed me off and I ended up getting moved to the end of the table where all the people that had been giving me dirty looks all week were seated. Lets just say that I was pissed! When I sat down one of them told me, "Dont worry Jim, We dont bite and I think you will be safe."
I swear I almost punched him accross the table. Trying to belittle me with His attitude and trying to say that he was the "top dog" at that end of the table. I tell you I almost hit him for real. I dont do violence but I got to be honest I could have easily taken him out and not given a rats ass.

Besides all of the "trivial" things that happened during the week I really enjoyed myself. Talked to old friends that I hear on the phone all of the time but rarely get to see. So, It was good.
Im dog-ass tired and I have spent most of today sleeping. But thats OK, tomorrow is just around the corner..."another day another dollar", right?
Have a great Monday, & Until Next Time...