OH THE WEBS WE WEAVE!!!


Ok. Here's the deal. My boyfriend goes to school fulltime. Has a fulltime job. And somewhere in between all of that is me. Lets say, for gee whiz, that I am a guy that likes to have his own time. Relaxing in his own place. Watch TV. Read. Surf the web. What ever. For some reason this last 7 days have really got me in a weird place mentally. Jason (my BF) works in sales and has to work Saturdays and Sundays, which leaves us little time during the week. IM not sure if its me feeling horny, insecure, lonely, or what but this arrangement is taking its toll on me. I am feeling like He is backing out of this relationship and its starting to get to me. My best friend Melisa says to cut the man some slack. So I am trying. In all fairness to him, it is midterms at school right now. He is working and trying to cram everything he needs to do for school. So why am I feeling neglected? IS it selfish? Needy? What? Any comments? I am really working on being understanding. Patient, which by the way, is not my strongest attribute. I just get paranoid and think I am not all that important to him. What makes matters worse is I am really starting to fall for the guy and I cant help but get worried thinking he is ending everything. Do I need to just get over myself. Let the man get his stuff done why I take a backseat for a bit? Please someone tell me something.
I am going to go now and get ready for bed.
Until Next Time...

SONG LYRICS OF THE DAY...

The Title of the song isnt all that important. The person who sings the song really doesnt matter either. It is a slow song that my boyfriend played for me the other night. It is a great song and the words are what he really wanted me to hear anyway. I had a tear fall down my check during the song because the instumental part of it is really moving. I get a little weak like that from time to time...Instrumentally moving songs (ie. "movie songs") really tug at my heart strings. Well this song has the instrumental and the beautiful words to go along with it. If you add in a man holding you from behind with his arms wrapped around you and His head resting on your shoulder...Well you have a romantic moment.
I just wanted to share the lyrics with you. Enjoy.
Until Next Time...


I've got money in my pocket
I like the color of my hair
I've got a friend who loves me
Got a house, I've got a car
I've got a good mother
and her voice is what keeps me here

Feet on ground
Heart in hand
Facing forward
Be yourself
I've never wanted anything
No I've, no I've, I've never wanted anything
so bad...so bad

Cardboard masks of all the people
I've been
thrown out with all the rusted, tangled
dented God Damned miseries
You could say I'm hard to hold
But if you knew me you'd know
I've got a good father
And his strength is what makes me cry

Feet on ground




Heart in hand
Facing forward
Be yourself
I've never wanted anything
No I've, no I've, I've never
wanted anything so bad...
so bad

I've got money in my pocket
I like the color of my hair
I've got a friend who loves me
Got a house, I've got a car
I've got a good mother
and her voice is what keeps me here

Feet on ground
Heart in hand
Facing forward
Be yourself

Heart in hand
Feet on ground
Facing forward
Be yourself
just be yourself
just be yourself

Feet on ground
Heart in hand
Feet on ground
Heart in hand