You opened it, Good luck. Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they love you. Something good will happen to you at 1:00 PM - 4:40 PM tomorrow, it could be anywhere. Get ready for the shock of your life, a good one. If you break the chain you will be cursed with relationship problems for the next 2 years. Karma. If there is someone you once loved (or still do) and can't get them out of your mind, repost this in another city within the next five minutes. Tonight at midnight they will remember how much they loved you as well. You will get the shock of your life tomorrow, a good one

You opened it, Good luck. Tonite at midnite your true love will realize they love you. Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:40 tomorrow, it could be anywhere. Get ready for the shock of your life. If you break the chain you will be cursed with relationship problems for the next 1o years. Karma.If there is someone you loved (or still do) and cant get them out of your mind, repost this in another city within the next five minutes. Tonite betweeen 1 and 4 am they will remember how much they loved you as well. You will get the shock of your life tomorrow.

Sorry...But I did it again...


Well, now You opened it. Good Luck. At midnight tonight,your true love will realize they love you. Something good will happen to you from 1:00 to 4:20 tomorrow. It could be anywhere.Get ready for the shock of your life. If you break this chain you could be cursed with relationship problems for the next 2 years. Post within 13 minutes. Karma! If there is someone you loved (or still do) and can't get them out of your mind, repost this in another city with in 5 minutes. Tonight between 1 and 4a.m. they will remember how much they loved you as well.You will get the shock of your life tomorrow.

HI GUYS

Yes, I decided to start blogging again. Of course, not a soul will read this for awhile...But that is ok. It more for me anyway.

SO...what has been going on since my last post. Where to begin...LMAO! Well, I am going to say LIFE has been happening since my last post. Its interesting how everything changes and stays the same. Sometimes, I swear, when I look over the past years of my life and I think I havent accomplished anything. But that isnt neccessarily the truth. Thoughts and concerns I had in the last years arent really that important anymore, and things that I assumed were "taken care of"...well, lets just say they come back and bite you in the ass! And not in a good way.

SO. As I type I am thinking that I will just pick up with life now..and not go back to relive history. I did it once and frankly, nothing earth shattering happened. Just life.

I will start my blog all over. It will be a little more telling about me. I dont think I will hold stuff back. If friends read this and get offended, they dont need to read. LOL!

Until Next Time...

SORRY!

you opened it. good luck. tonight at midnight, your true love will realize they love you. something good will happen to you at 1:00 - 4:20 tomorrow, it could be anywhere. get ready for the biggest shock of your life. if you break the chain you will be cursed with relationship problems for the next 12 years. post within 13 minutes karma: if there is someone you loved (or still do) and can't get them out of your mind, repost this in another city within five minutes. tonight between 1 and 4 am they will remember how much they loved you as well. you will get the shock of your life tomorrow

SORRY!

you opened it. good luck. tonight at midnight, your true love will realize they love you. something good will happen to you at 1:00 - 4:20 tomorrow, it could be anywhere. get ready for the biggest shock of your life. if you break the chain you will be cursed with relationship problems for the next 12 years. post within 13 minutes karma: if there is someone you loved (or still do) and can't get them out of your mind, repost this in another city within five minutes. tonight between 1 and 4 am they will remember how much they loved you as well. you will get the shock of your life tomorrow

UUGGGHH! Yes I opened it and IM posting it...Sorry


You opened it. Good luck. Tonight at midnight,your true love will realize they love you. Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:20 tomorrow, it could be anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. If you break the chain you will be cursed with relationship problems for the next 12 years. Post within 13 minutes Karma: If there is someone you loved(or still do) and can't get them out of your mind,repost this in another city within five minutes. Tonight between 1 and 4 am they will remember how much they loved you as well. You will get the shock of your life tomorrow.

UUGGGHHHHH!!! WHAT A NIGHT!!!


So somewhere in my bright ideas file in my head was the idea to go out and hit the bars. Actually its just the one bar I go to on Saturday night...The BRB...A country and Western bar. NO, I am not a huge fan of C&W music. The guys there are super nice and always have me laughing my ass off! Of course I didn't really think the whole idea through. I had sort of forgot that to get to the BRB I have to pass my EX's place and pretty much park in his front yard. So there I am, driving down the street, listening to sad music (not sure why) and got this overwhelming feeling of sadness. Seeing his place, passing by, I just really missed him last night. I called a friend to talk me off the mountain so to speak and she put somethings in to perspective. Thank god for friends. But I was in a sour mood and I should have just went home. Instead I put my head up high walked in to the place. I got to see the guys I hang out with there, which was good, and we did laugh. Of course they asked me where I had been...Which brought everything back up to the surface. I hadn't realized that I had been there since Jason and I started going out and that was nearly 5 months ago. Like I said, it was good to see them and laugh a bit. But I was ready to go home. get in bed and look forward to another day.
The night was interesting. Felt some emotions I hadn't expected, drank a Kamikaze shot (YUCK!) and saw some good people. All in all not a bad time...Just not what I needed. Better luck next time.
Until Next Time...

Is It Over...


This has been one really long week. Of course I miss my EX, but that is to be expected. Actually I don't miss him too much. Is that wrong to say? I miss more of what he represented to me. Does that make any sense? I guess what I am trying to say is that I think he is a really nice guy (the part I miss) but we where in two completely different places. He had other priorities that were more important and would often do things that I didn't really approve of (the part I don't miss). Of course his final words to me have haunted me to some degree and I am sure that he said them out of hurt...but none the less the words were hateful and I would have thought he respected me a little more than that. Oh well. Life goes on.
But what really made this week long was work. Good Grief! It was the longest week in the world and I thought Friday 5pm would never get here. I don't really have big plans this weekend except to R&R...But I might have to work in some pool time to work on my tan.
Just wanted to say Hello to everyone and Hope you all the Best of Weekends!
Take Care.
Until Next Time...

ITS OVER...LET THE FAT LADY SING!!!


Well, I am sorry for my absence. Life has been a little crazy with work, friends, family, and boyfriend. So to those who read or have read in the past, my blog, I'm sorry for the long time between post.
With that out of the way. Here is the latest. I just broke it off with my boyfriend. WE had been together for nearly 5 months and there was good times and bad. I thought I had found the one that I was going to be with for a long time...my mistake. As it turns out, he wasn't the one. I think what started to bother me was that we had little time together due to his schedule and when I would bring it up (which wasn't often) he would blow me off and say I knew what I was getting into. I do not want to talk bad about the guy, because he does have his good qualities, but I shouldn't have to give up "ME" to be with him. And that my dear readers, is what was happening. I was letting all or most of the things that are really important to me go to make the situation comfortable. In doing that I started to loose myself, and that is something that should never happen. It is unfortunate that we ended it the way we did...or should I say the way we started to end it. WE, I guess, technically ended it via text message. Real mature right!!! He sent me one this morning saying he thought I thought it was over and just to let him know if it was. I sent one back saying that when I sober up I was going to call him. He said to not worry about it that he got the picture. I got mad and said I wasn't worried about it...He called me an asshole...I said I wasn't that if he wanted to talk to call me...Blah Blah Blah. Well, its safe to say, now, that its over. I am bummed about it. But to be honest, I was loosing my self, he was never available due to his schedule, and his idea of a date was to sit in his apartment and watch TV while he got stoned and I had to leave so he could go to bed. Good times, right!?!?!?
I don't want to go on and on about all of it. Just know that I am single again. Was told some pretty hateful things on the phone. That I am going to be OK. Better than OK...I stood up for myself and that is a good thing to do...
Until Next Time...

OH THE WEBS WE WEAVE!!!


Ok. Here's the deal. My boyfriend goes to school fulltime. Has a fulltime job. And somewhere in between all of that is me. Lets say, for gee whiz, that I am a guy that likes to have his own time. Relaxing in his own place. Watch TV. Read. Surf the web. What ever. For some reason this last 7 days have really got me in a weird place mentally. Jason (my BF) works in sales and has to work Saturdays and Sundays, which leaves us little time during the week. IM not sure if its me feeling horny, insecure, lonely, or what but this arrangement is taking its toll on me. I am feeling like He is backing out of this relationship and its starting to get to me. My best friend Melisa says to cut the man some slack. So I am trying. In all fairness to him, it is midterms at school right now. He is working and trying to cram everything he needs to do for school. So why am I feeling neglected? IS it selfish? Needy? What? Any comments? I am really working on being understanding. Patient, which by the way, is not my strongest attribute. I just get paranoid and think I am not all that important to him. What makes matters worse is I am really starting to fall for the guy and I cant help but get worried thinking he is ending everything. Do I need to just get over myself. Let the man get his stuff done why I take a backseat for a bit? Please someone tell me something.
I am going to go now and get ready for bed.
Until Next Time...

SONG LYRICS OF THE DAY...

The Title of the song isnt all that important. The person who sings the song really doesnt matter either. It is a slow song that my boyfriend played for me the other night. It is a great song and the words are what he really wanted me to hear anyway. I had a tear fall down my check during the song because the instumental part of it is really moving. I get a little weak like that from time to time...Instrumentally moving songs (ie. "movie songs") really tug at my heart strings. Well this song has the instrumental and the beautiful words to go along with it. If you add in a man holding you from behind with his arms wrapped around you and His head resting on your shoulder...Well you have a romantic moment.
I just wanted to share the lyrics with you. Enjoy.
Until Next Time...


I've got money in my pocket
I like the color of my hair
I've got a friend who loves me
Got a house, I've got a car
I've got a good mother
and her voice is what keeps me here

Feet on ground
Heart in hand
Facing forward
Be yourself
I've never wanted anything
No I've, no I've, I've never wanted anything
so bad...so bad

Cardboard masks of all the people
I've been
thrown out with all the rusted, tangled
dented God Damned miseries
You could say I'm hard to hold
But if you knew me you'd know
I've got a good father
And his strength is what makes me cry

Feet on ground




Heart in hand
Facing forward
Be yourself
I've never wanted anything
No I've, no I've, I've never
wanted anything so bad...
so bad

I've got money in my pocket
I like the color of my hair
I've got a friend who loves me
Got a house, I've got a car
I've got a good mother
and her voice is what keeps me here

Feet on ground
Heart in hand
Facing forward
Be yourself

Heart in hand
Feet on ground
Facing forward
Be yourself
just be yourself
just be yourself

Feet on ground
Heart in hand
Feet on ground
Heart in hand

YES...I'M BACK!!!


Boy, I have some things to tell you guys. What a couple of crazy weeks I have had. Everything is good, it just took a lot out of me. First let me tell you guys about work. Yes, I went on a work trip. It was crazy. Fun. Exhausting. And I am glad to be home! I have been on many trips for work, but this one is a trip I really didn't want to do. It was crazy busy. Tempers where at an all time high and things were not always "easy going". I had a friend one night at the bar(after several cocktails) tell our boss off. Right in front of me. I couldn't just leave. I was stuck there in the middle. So here I am listening to him bitch and I stare at my district manager who winks at me like..."This is going to be good". I roll my eyes, light a cig and started dialing people on my cell. It was crazy. When the one boss started to raise her voice all I could do was laugh because it was about to get nasty! I stood there like third base...Hoping that things would die down. No, it didn't happen. The waiter come over and told us that our food was ready...They kept yelling. I started to leave...My other boss looked at me like "where are you going?" So there I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. Lucky me right!?!? I should tell you guys, because it might make more sense...I have 3 bosses. One in my store that manages me on a day to day bases. Then there is Her boss, my DM...Then there is my visual boss. She is in charge of the district visually speaking. It was both of my District Managers that were at the bar in the feud with my co-worker. Good Times!!! Let me tell you!!!
Enough about that.

.......DRUM ROLL PLEASE........
I have an announcement. I have a boyfriend. Yes, I know some are shocked, so am I. He came out of nowhere and we just really hit it off. It was a rocky start (and I do mean rocky) but I laid down the law and things are going much smoother. There is really something about him that is pretty amazing. We just really clicked and I think that this is really going somewhere good. OK. I know, it's too soon to tell if its going somewhere. But I can feel a definite connection that I have never felt before and its exciting and scary all at the same time. Ok...This part might make some of you gag...I know...What I am about to tell you is really sappy but that's the kind of shit I eat up. When I left for my work trip...He wrote a letter to me for every day I was gone. To open in the morning so that we could start our days together thinking about the same things and all of that. YES! I can hear some of you guys moaning now and I do believe I even detected a couple of eye rolls! SHAME SHAME I KNOW YOUR NAME'S! I am a very romantic guy and I thought the world of the letters! They were sweet, tender, romantic, and one was pretty dirty too (BTW...The last was my favorite). Its going along smoothly. His name is Jason and I will eventually post a pic of him for you all to see.

OK. I am going to go know. I have a crap load of work to do around the house today. Take care everyone and I will talk to you later.
Until Next Time...

OBSERVATIONS FROM TODAY


Two things I know for sure about my life.

1. Things are always changing. LIFE is always changing. Some might consider that to be a good thing. But if you hate change, like I do, it can make you on edge if your not ready (more on this later).

2. I HATE when you are driving down the road and someone cuts you off. Then turns less than 1/2 a block later. THIS SENDS ME TO THE OTHER SIDE!!! Swear words are flying out of my mouth that would make a sailor blush. Granted. I drive the speed limit and some folks might be in a hurry. I get that. But if you are turning in 30 feet don't cut me off. Break. Then turn!!! Really pisses me off. And of course I drive a Miata and the horns on them sound like you stepped on a mouse. What's the point. Put a horn on a car that actually does some good and not alert all the neighborhood cats that your on the way. LOL!!!

Back to number 1...Change. Not really my thing. Well, as some of you guys now...So-N-So is over. I still haven't heard from him and I don't expect too. Of course, now it would be wise for him to just let it go because the "ass chewing" that he would get would leave him looking like a wounded, junkyard dog.
There is someone new that I am talking to now though. Jason is his name. He is 4 years younger and so far is a really nice guy. Its weird though because I have only dated guys that are older...Not sure why. Just 'cause I guess. We shall see. Slow and steady right?!?!?

IM going to wrap this up now. I have some things to do around here and they aren't getting done if I am typing into this all night...LOL!!!

Until Next Time...

ps. AJ, be on the lookout for an upcoming HNT. Going to show the back of the photo so to speak. Just for you!

HNT...HERE YOU GO!


Ok. SO I have told myself this was MY year. The year I would "Live Life", nothing crazy or dangerous. Just come out of my box. So I thought I would just show you all my BOX...LOL!
Seriously, I want to be more proud of me. Take a stand, for Me. Not let life run me over...Pass me by. None of that. "So-n-So" put a damper on things. But no more. I can not answer for His actions. I can only do what's right for Me and move on. And I am!
So, in honor of HNT I have decided to post a PG-13 photo. Yes I know that some will think its lame; for Me though, in my mind its just enough!
So...Here you go. This is probably the only time I participate in this so enjoy!


Until Next Time...

AAHHH, LOVE!


It is pretty dificult to not be thinking about Love at this time of year. I still have a little hurt goin' on with "So-n-So" just vanishing. I am sure its for the best...something better is on the way. Right?!?!?
I guess I will get back to my old self soon enough. I was starting to fall for the guy though...Oh well. Life does go on. I hate the word "crush" but thats what I had and I guess the word is living up to its Definition.
I have to be honest though, I was hoping that this Valentine's day I would actually have a Valentine. Get something from a man I was dating. You know what I mean? Gettin a card from your Mom just isnt the same...LOL!
I am actually doing pretty good with the whole situation. I know others are out there. I am not a looser. I still have alot to offer someone. Its just when it all goes down like this you really start to doubt yourself. You true self. And that is the worst part of it all.
So. Like in years past. I will get a movie. By my Godiava Chocolate Strawberries. Sit on the couch. Ask one of my single girlfriends over (I dont want a man over because I want to be able to bash men)and just have a good time.

Life is good. Hope is coming back. Things are turning around. The future is looking promising again.

Until Next Time...


BTW...I do not go around sounding like this all day. Its just at night that my feelings and emotions seem to be more acute.

DEAR SO-N-SO...


I wanted to take some time to write you and let you know that I appreciated the time we spent together. It was good getting to know you and I had a great deal of fun on our dates. Yes, we were completely different but I thought that was a balance; Something that would make a good relationship. I also realize that we were in completely two different tax brackets, but I never asked you to pay for a thing. In fact I often paid for the both of us. You were a nice guy that was very quiet at times, BTW, that makes me nervous and I tend to not talk then...Just so you know. I thought you had the prettiest eyes. The color was rich and beautiful. I could have gotten lost in those eyes.
I have just one question for you though...What the hell happened? Why did you feel it was ok to just disappear? Like we never even met. Even if you found someone else, and things really clicked, grow a set and tell me about it. This silent treatment is really immature...I expected more from you due to the fact that your last partner of 7 yrs acted immaturely as well. It was the reason you broke up if I recall.
Well let me just tell you this...I am mad as hell right now. No actually, hurt, would be a better word to use. I thought we had something pretty good going on. I guess I was wrong.
I will take the high road. When I see you out and about town, I will smile. Nod. Maybe even wave. My head will be held high. My mind will be thinking how sad I am for you. You, my dear man, let a good thing go. It is your lose and I hope that the way you ended things so abruptly with me never happens to you. Because, just so you know, it sucks to treat someone with so little respect.
Have a nice life, so-n-so and I wish you well.
Jim

ps. This is what's on my mind right now. It is a letter to the guy that felt the need to end things between us w/o even letting me know. Yes, I could call him one more time to say WTF...But a guy has to keep a bit of his pride intact.

QUESTION...


I just wanted to ask a question to the readers out there...
I look at several blogs on the internet, some I comment on others I don't; But over half of them participate in HNT (half naked Thursday). In an effort to come out of my shell a little...What do you think about posting pic's of one's self partially clothed? Is it a good thing? Smart? Reckless? Just wanted some feedback.

Have a great weekend everyone.
Until Next Time...

HOPE?


I have a question...
What do you do to get your "hope" back? I realized before I started this post that my last couple of ones have been a little on the depressing/down side. So I wanted to post about something that was more cheerful and positive. So I was thinking about the things that are missing in my life and I came up with...Hope.
Yes, yours truly has been through the ringer lately. I am bored with my job. My family seems to be distant(not really, just in my mind). And "the guy" that I was seeing just fell off the face of the earth. Yes, just fell off!
Mind you, I am generally a very hopeful person. Even in the darkest of times I can always hold on to my hope because that is what gets you through. Well, today it seems to be diminishing.
Damn, I was going to be positive...Sure sounds like it, doesn't it? LOL!!!
Lets see. Things that I know bring me Hope. Well, Life brings me hope. Just when you think things couldn't get any worse...Something truly amazing happens and it restores your sense of self. Sunshine brings Hope...It has rained the last 11 days here in Houston and I thought I was late this morning because it was so bright out. It turns out that it was just the sunrise. LOL!!! Its great to see the sun again. Friends bring Hope...I do cherish my friends. They are incredible and I am blessed to have them. They are amazing. If they had any clue that I was going through a rough patch they would be over to take me to dinner and cheer me up in a heart beat (I am very private, BTW). My love for Art brings me Hope...When I see an amazing painting or exhibit...It makes my creative juices flow and I start to think all things are possible. God brings me Hope too...I haven't done a devotion or meditated in a while. I need to get myself centered. Recharged. I also believe in Love...Not so much right now...But, yes. Love brings me Hope. It makes me feel alive. It challenges me. I step out of my comfort zone when in love and I learn more about myself.

So. Tonight, my friends are getting together for cocktails. Tomorrow, I am going to the Museum of Modern Art. And, Saturday night I am going to the country/western bar (NO, I am not into C/W music...Hot men go there). Sunday is brunch. So yes, things are on the up and up. Life is good (sorta). I am single with the whole world to see.

I HOPE everyone has a great weekend. DO something for yourselves. Enjoy Life!
Until Next Time...

JUST SO YOU KNOW...




This is my state of mind. I do love this picture, it was taken on my trip to Cancun. The colors are beautiful. Sharp and contrasting. Of course, as some of you know...I HATE STORMS! So you can imagine the frame of mind I was in when this brief but heavy storm rolled through on our last day of the vacation.
Until Next Time...