ABOUT YESTERDAYS POST...


I forgot to give some background to what, or should I say why I am feeling the way that I am about "the Guy". It might make more sense if you knew the whole story...
When I first came out, I had this huge crush on this guy, we will call him "Tom". At the time he was my best friend and we did everything together. Well, nearly everything. Tom was amazing and I didn't think it was possible for 2 guys to be more emotionally intimate than He and I were. We shared everything: fears, hopes, dreams, desires...You name it. We used to sit on His couch at night and just talk. Talk. Talk. We often cried with one another over frustrations we were having in life and how many things seemed hopeless. We were each others "rock"...What a friend should be right?!? Well, he also threw any a bit of flirting too, and I waited for the day for things to naturally happen. Cut to 2 years later..."Jim, I have something to tell you. I have started to date someone and it is getting pretty serious." Can you say, SHOCKED!!! Here I am thinking that things were about to happen with us and He goes off and finds another guy. It was devastating.
Tom and I are still friends. He and his now partner have been together this whole time. I am happy for him, for them both actually. I used to not be, but I am now.
Of course the whole experience has left me a little gun shy so to speak. All the guys that I have dated in the past seem to want only one thing form me...My Ass! I do have to say, its a nice one...LOL!!! But I am more than a slab of meat. Most of the guys in the past thought that a nice dinner + good conversation = SEX. That's not how I want things. I know that it sounds old fashioned, maybe I am, but I want to "make Love" with a man. I can have sex with anyone; even though I am horny 24/7 I would rather feel that connection. Make sense?
Well, back to Mr Current...He seems to be on the slow track like myself. Which should make me happy, right? Well. Its not. I get all of these feelings from the past come back and I think, any day now, He is going to tell me that there is someone else and I would have let my heart get all involved in something that, yet again, didn't work out.
Yes, I know that that is what love is all about. Taking risks. Chances. I understand that.
I just don't want to get hurt again like the way "Tom" hurt me.
I will keep you guys posted.
Until Next Time...

SLOW AND STEADY WINS THE RACE...


Yes, its true, I have little to no patience. Well, that might not be entirely true...I lack patience in certain areas of my life. And let me tell you, when I hit the wall...I HIT THE WALL!!!
It seems that my love life is one of the areas that I can certainly use more patience! I often times get worked up because the guy I am seeing doesn't call me like I think he should and it really pisses me off. I start to second guess everything. You know like "Does he like me? What's he thinking? Is this moving in the right direction?" You know the stuff that gets to us single people from time to time. I, get these things in my mind and I start to doubt things about me. I should be happy that the guy wants to take things slow. I should appreciate the fact that its not totally about sex with him. I should be understanding that the guys owns his own business and has a full time job. I really just need to adjust my attitude and realize that everything 24/7 is NOT about me! I need to stop living in the future. Take my head out of the past and just learn to live in the "here and now". One day I will get the fact that Slow and Steady wins the race!
Until Next Time...

UNDERWEAR!!!


Yes, I am one of those guys that love a nice pair of underwear! I love the way that it outlines the man's body and shows what He's packing. I love it when a nice pair is fitting snuggley and you can see everything. I would almost, I SAID ALMOST, rather see pics like this instead of full frontal! Of course I wouldnt complain about having to see either!
Have a great weekend everyone!
Until Next Time...

WHAT A DAY! WHAT A DAY!!


Let me start by saying that I have worked the last 3 1/2 weeks with only 3 days off! I AM TIRED! I cant even begin to tell you what I am like when I AM TIRED!!! Can anyone say...BIOTCH?!?! Well don't all of you yell at once! I am not deaf!!!
It has been a very challenging several weeks.
Not only is work about to push me over the edge, but so is the guy I am dating. He's wanting to take things slow. Which I like...But DAMN. He's HOT and I am Horny!!! LOL!!! I guess the saying "good things come to those who wait" will need to be used in this situation. I am patient. Not much choice, I guess. I actually like the fact that we haven't gone crazy yet. There is a great deal of chemistry between the two of us and things are going in the right direction. I actually called Him last night to set up a date. I told him I wanted to take him out on the town...He called me tonight..."I don't want to go to dinner tomorrow night. I want to wait till Friday or Saturday so that I can spend as much time together with out having to worry about getting home early enough to get some sleep, before work. I liked his thinking and we set a date for Friday. Of course I told him I didn't want to wait till then to see him again and we are going to meet for coffee & desert tomorrow night. YIPEE! I am excited. I hope he swings by to pick me up. I love riding in the car with Him because he loves to hold my hand when he drives. This of course makes me feel all those warm and fuzzy thoughts. I guess I have become a school girl and I blush at the thought of him...LOL!

I am going off to bed now. Not because I am HOT AND BOTHERED talking about him. I told you guys that I am tired! LOL!!!

Have a great week.
UNTIL NEXT TIME...

GLAD TO BE HOME!!!


Boy, I tell ya! There is something about coming home after a really long week of work in another city. The week following Christmas until January 2, I have been in the great city of Dallas. I do love the city, but usually I am there with friends and not co-workers. Don't get me wrong, I have some amazing friends with work. Great people actually. Its just that being away on a Holiday, away from family and friends is not something that is easy to do. I am a really independent person but I realized over the week that I need to be near my family and friends during a Holiday like Christmas and New Years. I don't necessarily have to see them everyday, but it would be nice to be in the same city.
It was also tough to be away with out my own car. Like I said, I love my independence...Me + No Car=Very Un-happy!!! I've always known that I was a stubborn son of a gun, but put me in a hotel that is a little on the crappy side and take away my car...Well, lets just say I wasn't in the best of moods!
To top everything off...My crazy boss was in full swing! She recently quit smoking and boy was she a royal bitch! She and I went around 'n round several times and I am really rethinking my career. I had asked her since we finished 2, yes 2 days early if I could fly home and be with my family and friends early too! She got this crazed look in her eyes and started saying things like..."No way, we have things to do. What makes you think that you are so special!" Nice right? Well, the things that we had to do for the next 2 days was a complete joke! I stood around for nearly 5 hours straightening a stack of chinos. Then I got to help organize some signs that took me close to 30minutes to do! The longer I stood there the madder I got! These projects could have easily been passed off to the store team which would have allowed all of us to go home early.
I am real glad to be HOME!!!
Did I mention that on New Years Eve I made out with one of my co-workers from corporate? Yes, yours truly had way to much to drink that night...And well...When the clock struck 12 midnight the 2 of us just went at it! Nice. I felt like a moron! Not to mention the "drunk dialing" that took place that night also. The guy I just started dating was the recipient of one of these calls. It was around 1:30 am and unfortunately he was asleep. Another great moment! He called me the next day and we laughed about it, but I just felt stupid.
Oh well. Life goes on. Did I mention that "I am glad to be home?"
Until Next Time...